I don't feel motivated to blog any longer. Perhaps it is because I miss LiveJournal, or maybe I just have other things on my mind. A large part of me is focused on returning to the States. Sometimes it seems like I can't think about anything else. All my problems will be solved when we get home to the States!

As if...

I need to remind myself that we've been very happy here. Money has been a non-issue while we've lived in China, for the first time in our 10 years of marriage. We are already stressing about money problems once we return, primarily because as of now we will be unemployed come August 1.

Still, I can't help but daydream about driving myself to the grocery store, being allowed to take the cart out to my car, and driving my groceries home right to my front door. This is not to mention the plethora of good eats that will abound in the store. No more turtles, bullfrogs and cuttlefish stinking up the whole meat department. I won't have to look at pig brains, hearts and intenstines when I'm looking for pork chops. No one will be pointing at me, staring at me, saying "look, a forienger!" I'll just blend in with all the other oddball Americans. No one will gawk when I buy $50 worth of groceries (*gasp!*) Heck, no one will gawk if I buy $200 worth of groceries! The fact that I have three kids will be commonplace, and no cause for comment. And no matter how crowded the store is, whether it be the 4th of July or Christmas Eve, it will never, ever be as crowded as the Nanjing Wal-mart is every single Saturday.

Yes, I know. I'm looking at the States, and grocery shopping, with rose colored glasses. I don't care. It will be a joyous occasion.